I have been diligently working in the office.
Whilst I was diligently working in the office. Kadi was thirsty.
Kadi helped herself to a large glass of milk. She poured it and everything. Then, she hid it under my round cake taker lid from Tupperware. You know, that big one.
I took a moment to start some laundry, then tidy up the kitchen a bit. I picked up the cake taker to put it away ... and ...
SPLASH!
Milk all over the stove, dishwasher, floor and cabinets.
Why? I ask you ... WHY??????????
She was spanked. She had to clean it up with my help. She is now no longer watching TV today. I don't know what to let her do. I shouldn't be taking this moment away in here ... she has to be watched 24/7.
Why is she so sneaky? Is there a way to stop it?
Is her definance and unhappiness a direct result of my own frustration and unhappiness? Are we feeding each other? If so, what can I do?????
She was so good in OKlahoma last week. Was it because I was relaxed? What made it different?
Lauren said she was fighting with Justin the whole time she was at their house yesterday. Now she is fighting with him here at our house today. And Justin is tattling ... this is happening while I'm writing ... their right outside my bedroom door.
Last night Kadi fell asleep around 5:30. Slept all night. Now she is screaming and mad like she needs a nap. I need help!!
Justin is tattling again. Kadi is screaming.
Alright, I put her in her room.
My face is hot and red. The rosacea is a great marker of my state of being/mind. I guess it's good for if you ask me how my day is and I say 'fine' ... you can tell I'm lying.
Why is my little girl so unhappy? She hurts my heart.
She just hit her door. Justin is laying on the floor talking to her under the door ... taunting her. She is just crying and crying. Their fighting over Kelsey's feather boa.
Can I just throw it away?
Ah, ....
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Do you ever think you're losing your mind?
I am.
Why is it harder for me to accomplish my job this year than it was last year? What is different? Why does the business overhwhelm me so much? Why do my children overwhelm me so much? Why does Kyle overwhelm me sooo much?
My face. I don't eat spicy food anymore. I don't spend time in hot rooms or in the sun. I know it is directly related to the stress in my life. My rosacea that is.
My aunts in OKC suggested to me that I have a Magnesium deficiency. So I looked it up thinking it would help the rosacea. It actually helps Depression. Stress. It is a leveler. Interesting. It is all a vicious circle ... stress and rosacea.
So, I'm taking Magnesium now, my multi-vitamin, and using Arbonne Skin products. We'll see ....
Lord, please help me reduce the stresses in my life! Help me love my children. Help me not to be so concerned about the state of my home ... cleanliness.
Ay-yi-yi ... Kadi is already whining today. Keenan and Ned are doing mad-libs and asking me to spell everything under the sun ... and I'm trying to finish up some things in the office ... plus getting Kadi's shoes on her ... which she doesn't want to to do ... surprise. AND we need to leave for school.
I need a happy check today.
I'm very random. Is there a way to publish a scream on a blog?
I am.
Why is it harder for me to accomplish my job this year than it was last year? What is different? Why does the business overhwhelm me so much? Why do my children overwhelm me so much? Why does Kyle overwhelm me sooo much?
My face. I don't eat spicy food anymore. I don't spend time in hot rooms or in the sun. I know it is directly related to the stress in my life. My rosacea that is.
My aunts in OKC suggested to me that I have a Magnesium deficiency. So I looked it up thinking it would help the rosacea. It actually helps Depression. Stress. It is a leveler. Interesting. It is all a vicious circle ... stress and rosacea.
So, I'm taking Magnesium now, my multi-vitamin, and using Arbonne Skin products. We'll see ....
Lord, please help me reduce the stresses in my life! Help me love my children. Help me not to be so concerned about the state of my home ... cleanliness.
Ay-yi-yi ... Kadi is already whining today. Keenan and Ned are doing mad-libs and asking me to spell everything under the sun ... and I'm trying to finish up some things in the office ... plus getting Kadi's shoes on her ... which she doesn't want to to do ... surprise. AND we need to leave for school.
I need a happy check today.
I'm very random. Is there a way to publish a scream on a blog?
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
I'm on my own self-imposed lunch break ... I have so much work to do!!! But I must take a break ... course, it's almost over ... but that's okay!
Well .... we're home again.
Sunday night after we got home, I made a comment to the girls about Daddy having been home all that time by himself in the house, then I went on about my business. That comment had been part of a conversation. It was done. I moved on.
Kadi started bawling ... so Kyle went to her. He asked her 'what's wrong'? She said ... "I don't want Daddy to be alone." She cried and cried because Daddy had been alone. I guess it hadn't really registered to her, you know. Kyle tenderly told her "it's okay honey, I'm not alone now. You're here with me". It was so sweet, yet sad. I stood watching. She was so brokenhearted for her daddy. How wonderfully sweet. She told him the next time we leave, he has to come too. :) Big smile.
I just went to McDonalds ... I thought they were taking credit cards now ... nope, it's debit cards. So before I got to the counter and embarrased myself, I took a few steps back and counted my change.
Then, I purchased 2 regular hamburgers and a medium soda. $2.79. Not bad for only have $2.90 in change! Koel and I quite enjoyed our little lunch out. Also a part of my lunch break. We had to go buy stamps ... so why not get a soda I figure!
Because I had so much office work today, Lauren took Kadi for the day ... isn't that wonderful??? Kadi was thrilled to pieces, as was Justin. So, I am working my little buns off today. I still have about 2 hours of work to do at this desk. I must begin ....
Maybe later I'll have time to share more of the 4 K stories from our vacation.
Well .... we're home again.
Sunday night after we got home, I made a comment to the girls about Daddy having been home all that time by himself in the house, then I went on about my business. That comment had been part of a conversation. It was done. I moved on.
Kadi started bawling ... so Kyle went to her. He asked her 'what's wrong'? She said ... "I don't want Daddy to be alone." She cried and cried because Daddy had been alone. I guess it hadn't really registered to her, you know. Kyle tenderly told her "it's okay honey, I'm not alone now. You're here with me". It was so sweet, yet sad. I stood watching. She was so brokenhearted for her daddy. How wonderfully sweet. She told him the next time we leave, he has to come too. :) Big smile.
I just went to McDonalds ... I thought they were taking credit cards now ... nope, it's debit cards. So before I got to the counter and embarrased myself, I took a few steps back and counted my change.
Then, I purchased 2 regular hamburgers and a medium soda. $2.79. Not bad for only have $2.90 in change! Koel and I quite enjoyed our little lunch out. Also a part of my lunch break. We had to go buy stamps ... so why not get a soda I figure!
Because I had so much office work today, Lauren took Kadi for the day ... isn't that wonderful??? Kadi was thrilled to pieces, as was Justin. So, I am working my little buns off today. I still have about 2 hours of work to do at this desk. I must begin ....
Maybe later I'll have time to share more of the 4 K stories from our vacation.
Monday, March 22, 2004
It is the eve of my half-birthday. Yep ... March 23 ... I will be 31 1/2. Wierd. My mom and I were looking at my baby book ... there was a picture of she and I in there. I was Koel's age, and my mom was my age. Wow ... time flies.
The kids are in bed. Yeah. Mom and I are fiddling around working on Kyle's work shirts. We're trying to get the logo just right.
Speaking of Kyle. I wonder how he's doing all on his own. All by himself.
Probably having way too much fun.
Today was a fun ... lazy day. Just lazy. Ahhh .....
The kids are in bed. Yeah. Mom and I are fiddling around working on Kyle's work shirts. We're trying to get the logo just right.
Speaking of Kyle. I wonder how he's doing all on his own. All by himself.
Probably having way too much fun.
Today was a fun ... lazy day. Just lazy. Ahhh .....
We are in Talequah ... the kids and I. It has been so much fun. The trip down we sang and sang ... and we stopped at the Bridge McDonalds ... course the ice cream machine was broken .. but that was okay ... we stopped in Pryor instead at BRAUMS ... which is my favorite ice cream place!! Mmmmm .....
Yesterday, Sunday, we went to the early Service at 8:30 a.m. Then we had a marvelous lunch courtesy of the Walmart deli ... have you tried their Rotisserie Chicken??? OH MY!!! Then, we went on a long scenic drive. We must have seen 15-20 deer. I tried to take pictures, but they are just sooo fast! What fun for us all!
We saw the Illinois river and we went to Lake Tenkiller. We took some really fun pictures. The kids skipped rocks, and played a long time. Koel tried to run a few times ... by run, I mean, take off .... he,he ....
It was such a nice time.
Then, we came home and played all evening in the den. All of us. Grandpa, Grandma, the kids and me. We threw balls. We told stories about 'calling in the ants'. We had a great time! We were all in bed and asleep by like 9:30. Exhausted. What a fun day!
I believe today's plan is to weed the garden ... we'll see ....
I am happy and content.
Yesterday, Sunday, we went to the early Service at 8:30 a.m. Then we had a marvelous lunch courtesy of the Walmart deli ... have you tried their Rotisserie Chicken??? OH MY!!! Then, we went on a long scenic drive. We must have seen 15-20 deer. I tried to take pictures, but they are just sooo fast! What fun for us all!
We saw the Illinois river and we went to Lake Tenkiller. We took some really fun pictures. The kids skipped rocks, and played a long time. Koel tried to run a few times ... by run, I mean, take off .... he,he ....
It was such a nice time.
Then, we came home and played all evening in the den. All of us. Grandpa, Grandma, the kids and me. We threw balls. We told stories about 'calling in the ants'. We had a great time! We were all in bed and asleep by like 9:30. Exhausted. What a fun day!
I believe today's plan is to weed the garden ... we'll see ....
I am happy and content.
Thursday, March 18, 2004
Kadi, Koel, and I dropped off Keenan and Kennedy this morning at school. As we drove away, Kadi was looking out the window of the car ....
"Mommy, I see God!" she says excitedly!
I looked, and there was the Sun sending rays through an opening in the clouds. It was beautiful. I told her in a way she did ... and wasn't it so nice of God to make such a beautiful thing for us to see.
We decided that God and Jesus were watching us.
Sweet morning thoughts.
"Mommy, I see God!" she says excitedly!
I looked, and there was the Sun sending rays through an opening in the clouds. It was beautiful. I told her in a way she did ... and wasn't it so nice of God to make such a beautiful thing for us to see.
We decided that God and Jesus were watching us.
Sweet morning thoughts.
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
We just got home from the most fabulous party with our church family! We had a St. Paddy's day dinner together, did a few toasts, told a few irish jokes, and shared a keg of rootbeer! Hilarious! Then, we shared a time of worship and praise that was truly so much fun! The children were given musical instruments and allowed to dance all around, there were balloons everywhere, and we all just sang, clapped, danced and had a ball worshipping God together! That was truly a PARTY!
So often as Christians we lose sight of the fact that we are to celebrate, to eat of the fat, and enjoy our Lord together! We did that tonight. What a way for 'family' to grow. God is pretty smart. Jesus set us a great example ... he could often be found at parties! JOY ... the joy of the LORD is our STRENGTH!
Where is our JOY??
"I will dance, I will sing ... to be mad for my King ... Nothing Lord is hindering this passion in my soul ... I'll become even more undignified than this ......" Dance like David danced!!
So often as Christians we lose sight of the fact that we are to celebrate, to eat of the fat, and enjoy our Lord together! We did that tonight. What a way for 'family' to grow. God is pretty smart. Jesus set us a great example ... he could often be found at parties! JOY ... the joy of the LORD is our STRENGTH!
Where is our JOY??
"I will dance, I will sing ... to be mad for my King ... Nothing Lord is hindering this passion in my soul ... I'll become even more undignified than this ......" Dance like David danced!!
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
I need stuff to sell on ebay!!! I've run out! It is such a bad spot for me!!! Help!!!!! I need the gas money. It's great gas money!!!!
Tomorrow being St. Paddy's Day ... my children (Keenan and Ned) are planning their 'green' clothes. They're cracking me up!
I've already picked out mine too ... truth be told!
Well, Ned, Keenan and I went to Wal-mart this evening ... we hit the shoe isle ... and WOW! We each got a pair of shoes off the clearance rack. Keenan's are new 'light' up tennis shoes. He is beyond excited! And Kennedy's are a pair of Mary Kate and Ashley navy/white slip on tennis shoes/mules. She is very excited too. AND mine ... two pair of Thomas McAnn ... slip on sandal/mules. One is black. The other is brown. I love them!!! So exciting! I'll have trendy feet! I never have trendy feet.
Kyle hasn't lost anything yet today. That's good. I'm glad.
My girls painted up a fiesta in the kitchen tonight. Mucho paint all over the place. But they had fun.. I need to do better at letting them create. Now they're doing the same ... painting, in the bathtub with bathtub paints.
I do believe Kadi will single handedly destroy our home. The water she spills out of the bathtub alone will rot the foundation of the upper floor. EVERY time she bathes! What to do. What to do.
Tomorrow being St. Paddy's Day ... my children (Keenan and Ned) are planning their 'green' clothes. They're cracking me up!
I've already picked out mine too ... truth be told!
Well, Ned, Keenan and I went to Wal-mart this evening ... we hit the shoe isle ... and WOW! We each got a pair of shoes off the clearance rack. Keenan's are new 'light' up tennis shoes. He is beyond excited! And Kennedy's are a pair of Mary Kate and Ashley navy/white slip on tennis shoes/mules. She is very excited too. AND mine ... two pair of Thomas McAnn ... slip on sandal/mules. One is black. The other is brown. I love them!!! So exciting! I'll have trendy feet! I never have trendy feet.
Kyle hasn't lost anything yet today. That's good. I'm glad.
My girls painted up a fiesta in the kitchen tonight. Mucho paint all over the place. But they had fun.. I need to do better at letting them create. Now they're doing the same ... painting, in the bathtub with bathtub paints.
I do believe Kadi will single handedly destroy our home. The water she spills out of the bathtub alone will rot the foundation of the upper floor. EVERY time she bathes! What to do. What to do.
Monday, March 15, 2004
Kyle is on his way to Dairy Queen!!! Yippee!! I told him I wanted icecream, and he said he'd go get it! I didn't even have to do a little pouty routine! ... not that I would do that mind you!
I'm looking forward to this week.. It is going to be busy.
Tuesday: Errands and clean out the car.
Wednesday: Laundry and Packing
Thursday: Pick up Paige and Zaine at 12:00 noon, then wait for Mom and Dad to arrive!
Friday: Paige and Zaine will be with us again. AND there's the big sale at Mary Grove. I'm very excited about that!
Then ... Saturday: We leave for OOOOOOOklahoma, where the wind comes sweeping down the plains ...and the waving wheat can sure smell sweet when the wind comes right behind the rain .... I know I belong to that land ... and that land I belong to is grand ..... so let me say ... YeoW! A-yip-I-O-E-A ... Yow! I'm only saying You're doing fine Oklahoma! Oklahoma ... okay! I'm a little excited.
AND my cousin Gretchen had her baby ... so we get to meet Avery Elise Davis this week! And I get to meet Gretchen's husband Greg ... finally!
I'm excited about the whole trip. I'm excited to get to relax with my mom and dad. Just to be in their house and be able to just 'be'. You know. Yeah!!!
So .... the busier the better this week!!!!
Course, I need to label a bunch of stuff and get everything in plain view for Kyle ... so he can find things! he,he.
Keenan note for today: He is just a great guy. I like him so much! How fun is it to just really like your own kid!! It's fabulous! I was hugging on him this afternoon, the way I usually do on Koel ... Koel didn't like it at all ... but then he conceeded and just joined in the hugging. I can't believe how big Keenan is ... wasn't he just a baby?
Kennedy ... Before dinner tonight, there had been much fussing and broo-ha-ha. So, I told them all we were going to have quiet for 5 minutes and I set the timer. No talking. Well, Kadi lasted only about 30 seconds. She was sent to her room. (she proceeded to throw a huge fit and ended up staying in there for quite a while). Keenan lasted about 2 minutes. Then he had to go to his room for the remaineder of the 5 minutes. Kennedy was as quiet as a mouse. And after the buzzer she was quite proud of herself. "I did good", she said. I admitted she had. Me thinks she was a bit too proud. Ah well.
Kadi ... well you heard about her fit already ... Jenny brought up an interesting thought today ... maybe I should play with her diet ... could it be she might be hypoglocemic? (sp??) I just couldn't please Kadi today. Everything I did made her mad. I was real sad. ... HOWEVER ... bright spot ... this afternoon, when she took her shoes off ... a miracle happened! She put them away in the shoe basket!!! OH did I ever sing her praises!!! She was very pleased.
Koel ....that boy is an eating machine!!! He had seconds and thirds at lunch and at dinner!!! Is he growing again! He's already a big guy!! WOW! He really had fun with the word "Uh-Oh" today. He was dropping a block and saying it. Very sweet. AND he talked on the phone to Jenny today ... he really had a big conversation. It was quite fun! For all three of us!
Nika ... (she's staying with us for 2 weeks ... Lauren and Jason's dog) had a big event today too! She got to go to DAiry Queen with Kyle. Oh, she was real excited to get out! She's such a great dog! I don't mind having her here at all! She is just awesome.
That's all. There is no more today ... my ice cream is here ...
I'm looking forward to this week.. It is going to be busy.
Tuesday: Errands and clean out the car.
Wednesday: Laundry and Packing
Thursday: Pick up Paige and Zaine at 12:00 noon, then wait for Mom and Dad to arrive!
Friday: Paige and Zaine will be with us again. AND there's the big sale at Mary Grove. I'm very excited about that!
Then ... Saturday: We leave for OOOOOOOklahoma, where the wind comes sweeping down the plains ...and the waving wheat can sure smell sweet when the wind comes right behind the rain .... I know I belong to that land ... and that land I belong to is grand ..... so let me say ... YeoW! A-yip-I-O-E-A ... Yow! I'm only saying You're doing fine Oklahoma! Oklahoma ... okay! I'm a little excited.
AND my cousin Gretchen had her baby ... so we get to meet Avery Elise Davis this week! And I get to meet Gretchen's husband Greg ... finally!
I'm excited about the whole trip. I'm excited to get to relax with my mom and dad. Just to be in their house and be able to just 'be'. You know. Yeah!!!
So .... the busier the better this week!!!!
Course, I need to label a bunch of stuff and get everything in plain view for Kyle ... so he can find things! he,he.
Keenan note for today: He is just a great guy. I like him so much! How fun is it to just really like your own kid!! It's fabulous! I was hugging on him this afternoon, the way I usually do on Koel ... Koel didn't like it at all ... but then he conceeded and just joined in the hugging. I can't believe how big Keenan is ... wasn't he just a baby?
Kennedy ... Before dinner tonight, there had been much fussing and broo-ha-ha. So, I told them all we were going to have quiet for 5 minutes and I set the timer. No talking. Well, Kadi lasted only about 30 seconds. She was sent to her room. (she proceeded to throw a huge fit and ended up staying in there for quite a while). Keenan lasted about 2 minutes. Then he had to go to his room for the remaineder of the 5 minutes. Kennedy was as quiet as a mouse. And after the buzzer she was quite proud of herself. "I did good", she said. I admitted she had. Me thinks she was a bit too proud. Ah well.
Kadi ... well you heard about her fit already ... Jenny brought up an interesting thought today ... maybe I should play with her diet ... could it be she might be hypoglocemic? (sp??) I just couldn't please Kadi today. Everything I did made her mad. I was real sad. ... HOWEVER ... bright spot ... this afternoon, when she took her shoes off ... a miracle happened! She put them away in the shoe basket!!! OH did I ever sing her praises!!! She was very pleased.
Koel ....that boy is an eating machine!!! He had seconds and thirds at lunch and at dinner!!! Is he growing again! He's already a big guy!! WOW! He really had fun with the word "Uh-Oh" today. He was dropping a block and saying it. Very sweet. AND he talked on the phone to Jenny today ... he really had a big conversation. It was quite fun! For all three of us!
Nika ... (she's staying with us for 2 weeks ... Lauren and Jason's dog) had a big event today too! She got to go to DAiry Queen with Kyle. Oh, she was real excited to get out! She's such a great dog! I don't mind having her here at all! She is just awesome.
That's all. There is no more today ... my ice cream is here ...
Here's a great big ARGH ... for today!
Kyle couldn't find ... not one ... but FOUR things this morning!! What would he do without me? He'll be lost next week while we're in Oklahoma!
1st ... lost his shoes. I told him I don't know where they are. They're his shoes and their dirty. I said he should know I don't like to touch his dirty work stuff. They were found ... by me ... under the office desk, where he had taken them off.
2nd ... his cellphone ... he let Koel play with it! Why, Oh Why?? It was found ... by me ... beside the toilet on the floor. Oooo gross.
3rd ... a phone number he needed. He had left it on the desk. Keep in mind, no one but me shuts my bedroom door in an effort to keep Koel away from the desk. Koel got in here yesterday morning and knocked everything everywhere. .... The phone number was found ... by me ... in the stack of papers I picked up after Tornado Koel.
4th ... his cellphone again. After finding it, he let Koel have it again ... Koel proceeded to take off withit. It was found ... by me ... on the entertainment center by some books on a shelf.
He finally left for work ... now I can get something done! :)
Kyle couldn't find ... not one ... but FOUR things this morning!! What would he do without me? He'll be lost next week while we're in Oklahoma!
1st ... lost his shoes. I told him I don't know where they are. They're his shoes and their dirty. I said he should know I don't like to touch his dirty work stuff. They were found ... by me ... under the office desk, where he had taken them off.
2nd ... his cellphone ... he let Koel play with it! Why, Oh Why?? It was found ... by me ... beside the toilet on the floor. Oooo gross.
3rd ... a phone number he needed. He had left it on the desk. Keep in mind, no one but me shuts my bedroom door in an effort to keep Koel away from the desk. Koel got in here yesterday morning and knocked everything everywhere. .... The phone number was found ... by me ... in the stack of papers I picked up after Tornado Koel.
4th ... his cellphone again. After finding it, he let Koel have it again ... Koel proceeded to take off withit. It was found ... by me ... on the entertainment center by some books on a shelf.
He finally left for work ... now I can get something done! :)
Friday, March 12, 2004
So ... we did the planting thing today ... that was wonderful! I already mentioned that earlier today. I failed to mention however, that we went to the Dollar Store after Wal-mart. If the kids are good, I sometimes treat them to the Dollar Store. Keenan picked out an Ice Cream Sandwich ... personally what I would have chosen! Kadi picked Bubbles. Kennedy picked a lipstick/nail polish combo. I was pleased with their choices.
Upon arriving home, I made lunch. After lunch I offered the children ice cream. Keenan said "Mom, remember I already had some." Isn't he a great kid! I would've so gone for that second helping of ice cream! I was proud of him. I thanked him for reminding me.
Kadi's bubbles were fun for a time. Then, they cleaned the floor and the table ... with the help of my arm and a couple of wet rags. Ah .....
And Kennedy ... well she was lovley in her carnation pink lipstick and nail polish. For a while ......
Her sister ... Kadi ... she ate it ... the lipstick that is. About an hour and a half ago. Yep, she ate it. I was furious. I asked her why. She said she was hungry. I said it's not food!!! She was covered in lipstick ... her entire face. Well, nearly. So, I sent her packing to her room. Keenan and Kennedy get the priviledge of sleeping in the basement. They love to. However, Kadi missed out. I was so furious with her. I told Kyle that I quit.
I don't really. But sometimes I want to. I yelled and yelled at her. I forced her to drink water until she almost threw up. I spanked her. I don't remember what order that all happened in ... but it all happened.
I don't understand.
When she was falling asleep ... nearly out ... I sat beside her and rubbed her head. I bent low and kissed her ... then I prayed. Lord, protect my little girl's spirit. May she always love you. Replace this stubborn spirit with kindness and peace.
I'm tired now.
OH ... the bathroom toilet overflowed this evening also ... and I mean .... OVERFLOWED! The carpet in the hallway downstairs is alllllll wet. There was atleast a standing 1/2 inch of water in the bathroom when we discovered it. Kennedy heard it and came running ... Good girl! So, I learned how to use the wet-vac. Something new everyday. That's cool.
Upon arriving home, I made lunch. After lunch I offered the children ice cream. Keenan said "Mom, remember I already had some." Isn't he a great kid! I would've so gone for that second helping of ice cream! I was proud of him. I thanked him for reminding me.
Kadi's bubbles were fun for a time. Then, they cleaned the floor and the table ... with the help of my arm and a couple of wet rags. Ah .....
And Kennedy ... well she was lovley in her carnation pink lipstick and nail polish. For a while ......
Her sister ... Kadi ... she ate it ... the lipstick that is. About an hour and a half ago. Yep, she ate it. I was furious. I asked her why. She said she was hungry. I said it's not food!!! She was covered in lipstick ... her entire face. Well, nearly. So, I sent her packing to her room. Keenan and Kennedy get the priviledge of sleeping in the basement. They love to. However, Kadi missed out. I was so furious with her. I told Kyle that I quit.
I don't really. But sometimes I want to. I yelled and yelled at her. I forced her to drink water until she almost threw up. I spanked her. I don't remember what order that all happened in ... but it all happened.
I don't understand.
When she was falling asleep ... nearly out ... I sat beside her and rubbed her head. I bent low and kissed her ... then I prayed. Lord, protect my little girl's spirit. May she always love you. Replace this stubborn spirit with kindness and peace.
I'm tired now.
OH ... the bathroom toilet overflowed this evening also ... and I mean .... OVERFLOWED! The carpet in the hallway downstairs is alllllll wet. There was atleast a standing 1/2 inch of water in the bathroom when we discovered it. Kennedy heard it and came running ... Good girl! So, I learned how to use the wet-vac. Something new everyday. That's cool.
We just did all of our indoor planting ... the beginning of the 2004 garden!
I've decided this year that the top garden is going to become an herb garden. WHAT FUN!! And behind the garage down to the fence, I'll fill with tomatoes, peppers, okra, etc....
The herbs I've chosen are .... Lavendar, Oregano, Chives, Garlic Chives, Parsley, Sage, Thyme, Basil, and I want to add Rosemary. I also want to grow Strawberries there. We are going to make a spot for the green beans and peas in the top garden. I want it to be so pretty! I'm very excited! Maybe I should add Chamomile, just for pretty's sake.
The kids and I all loaded up and went to Wal-mart today. We picked out our seeds, cups and soil. Then at home we pushed holes into styrofoam cups with toothpicks, filled the cups with soil, planted the seeds according to package directions and then placed them in two large cookie sheets that have sides. Exciting stuff!
A few of them say we'll see seedlings in as early as 7 days! We are excited! Now ... I just hope Kyle won't forget to water them while the kiddies and I are gone to Oklahoma!
We've also been listening to Junie B. Jones audio books and Ramona, Age 8 ...audio book. Hilarious! Great fun for while we've been working!
I love the Junie B. Jones just calls her teacher ... Mrs. That's all. Just Mrs. She says "She has another name, but I just like Mrs." So cute.
I've decided this year that the top garden is going to become an herb garden. WHAT FUN!! And behind the garage down to the fence, I'll fill with tomatoes, peppers, okra, etc....
The herbs I've chosen are .... Lavendar, Oregano, Chives, Garlic Chives, Parsley, Sage, Thyme, Basil, and I want to add Rosemary. I also want to grow Strawberries there. We are going to make a spot for the green beans and peas in the top garden. I want it to be so pretty! I'm very excited! Maybe I should add Chamomile, just for pretty's sake.
The kids and I all loaded up and went to Wal-mart today. We picked out our seeds, cups and soil. Then at home we pushed holes into styrofoam cups with toothpicks, filled the cups with soil, planted the seeds according to package directions and then placed them in two large cookie sheets that have sides. Exciting stuff!
A few of them say we'll see seedlings in as early as 7 days! We are excited! Now ... I just hope Kyle won't forget to water them while the kiddies and I are gone to Oklahoma!
We've also been listening to Junie B. Jones audio books and Ramona, Age 8 ...audio book. Hilarious! Great fun for while we've been working!
I love the Junie B. Jones just calls her teacher ... Mrs. That's all. Just Mrs. She says "She has another name, but I just like Mrs." So cute.
Thursday, March 11, 2004
I have to give big KUDOS to my brother. (His name is David). He taught me this fabulous way to tie shoes that has really saved me sooo much time and frustration with my children and their shoes! Even Kennedy uses it!
What you do is ..... When you make your two loops ... Instead of only taking the loop down and through one time ... do it twice ... and pull!
Wha-la ... a double knot that is easy to untie ... simply pull the ends of your shoestrings! No fuss!
It is fabulous!
I just had to give David a big THUMBS UP today. It really jumped out at me this morning how much time that has saved me!
So, DAvid if you read this ..... THANK YOU!!!!
What you do is ..... When you make your two loops ... Instead of only taking the loop down and through one time ... do it twice ... and pull!
Wha-la ... a double knot that is easy to untie ... simply pull the ends of your shoestrings! No fuss!
It is fabulous!
I just had to give David a big THUMBS UP today. It really jumped out at me this morning how much time that has saved me!
So, DAvid if you read this ..... THANK YOU!!!!
I am so proud of Keenan right now.
Well, at first I was a bit torked at him ... when I dropped Keenan and Kennedy off at school, they wanted to be let off at the top of the building. That's fine, especially since they go in together. Well ... Keenan gets out of the car and races toward his friend Andy ... totally leaving his sister behind! I couldn't believe it! That's so not like Keenan! Kennedy struggled to get her stuff and get going. I watched her walk into the building as I slowly drove away .... and then I saw him ....
Keenan was standing right inside the front door waiting for her. Ahhh .... I'm so proud.
My kids love each other so much! Especially Keenan and Kennedy. What a relationship they have!
AND ... Kyle lost his keys yesterday too!!!! He finally found them in his friend Donnie's truck! Ha! I knew I hadn't had them!!!! he,he.
For anyone who reads this ... what are your thoughts on BOOBAH ... PBS's new show???/
Well, at first I was a bit torked at him ... when I dropped Keenan and Kennedy off at school, they wanted to be let off at the top of the building. That's fine, especially since they go in together. Well ... Keenan gets out of the car and races toward his friend Andy ... totally leaving his sister behind! I couldn't believe it! That's so not like Keenan! Kennedy struggled to get her stuff and get going. I watched her walk into the building as I slowly drove away .... and then I saw him ....
Keenan was standing right inside the front door waiting for her. Ahhh .... I'm so proud.
My kids love each other so much! Especially Keenan and Kennedy. What a relationship they have!
AND ... Kyle lost his keys yesterday too!!!! He finally found them in his friend Donnie's truck! Ha! I knew I hadn't had them!!!! he,he.
For anyone who reads this ... what are your thoughts on BOOBAH ... PBS's new show???/
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
HERE Is something FABULOUS!
I spent most of my morning at Wal-mart with Lauren, Justin, Kadi and Koel. We stayed in the book/musical toy isle for quite a long time. The kids played and Lauren and I read books. It is like being at the library/toybrary. Wonderful! Then, we strolled over to the Clearance isles. We stayed quite a bit of a long time there too!
I found ..... two gorgeous table cloths .... 100" x 60". The colors are Navy, Purple, and Sage on a white background. Flowers, Leaves, Music, and sweet garden sayings. ... Lovely! They are now the drapes in my bedroom!!! I paid $4.25 per table cloth!!!! Fabulous! AND there were matching cloth napkins ... now I have two big throw pillows on my bed. And I brought in a smaller navy one from the living room! My bedroom looks amazing! The napkins were 2 for $1 ... so for $10.50 ... I have a lovely 'new' room. I plan on now painting my bedroom sage ... with my white wood trim, big white bookcase ... and these new pillows and drapes ... Oooo-wee .... I SO EXCITED!!!
I also made an Italian Meatloaf for dinner ... AMAZING! It was like eating a giant meatball! MMMMMM....
AND here's another fun thing .... I now own "The Thrill of It All" starring James Garner and Doris Day! I love that movie!!! It is so funny ... one of those you can watch over and over! Now I 'need' "Move Over Darling" also starring James Garner and Doris Day. It is sooo funny too!
I found a new foundation makeup today! It really evens out my skin tone! Exciting stuff!
Keenan ... he's so cute ... every morning now he runs into the school building and up the stairs to the middle landing which has windows that look over the parking lot. He wants me to wave and blow him a kiss ... so I do. Sweet Boy.
He has also informed me that the Tyler in his class at school does not like him. Actually 'hates' him. That is hard to hear as a mom! I wanted to scratch the kids eyes. But I realize also, they are 7 and 8 years old. Emotions are rampant. Still a hard mommy moment for me. I asked Keenan why ... he says he doesn't know ... maybe because he sits too close to him ...
AND Kennedy told me that Jarrod in her class 'hates' her. I was shocked. I know for a fact that Jarrod likes her. But she says that she got in his way [unintentionally] in PE while playing Hockey. Apparently he is competitive.
Hard stuff for a mommy's heart. My babies are awesome! How dare anyone not think sooooo!!!!!
Kennedy dressed herself up in a black long sleeve top, black leggins and her long black boots this evening ... topping off the outfit with a black headband. My oh my ... didn't we look coffee-shoppee. She said she was a secret agent. He,he. She could wear a gunny sack and look pretty.
Kadi-here's my question .... why is it so hard for her to get along with people some days. I find myself being so embarrassed by the mean things she does and says ... yet I realize she isn't me. She may be a reflection of me to a degree ... but she is her own person. She must have some anger issues, or it is purely selfishness. Lord, I need wisdom to know how to parent this little girl!
By the way, Ike told her she was beautiful on Sunday ... so now she has decided she wants to marry Ike and not Justin. Fickle. he,he. Toddler romance. Funny stuff.
Koel ... at Wal-mart today ... he wanted Lauren and not me!!! I reached for him and he pulled away ... when he did come to me ... he wanted right back to her. My poor little heart. However, when he gets his little feelers hurt ... he comes running to me ... he knows who momma is!
It's funny. Every day, I just can't get over how cute he is. What a doll. Always smiling. And that dimple ... it goes on and on ..... AND speaking of his dimple ... which leads me to his cheeks .... his cheeks will do that flappy thing that Lauren's do! Hilarious!!!!!! For those of you who know what I'm talking about .... you know that is funny!
Kyle couldn't find a receipt tonight. I discovered quickly though that it wasn't that he couldn't find it ... he just really did not look for it first. Here's where I would place a smirking smiling face.
Thank you Lord for a relaxing day! And even for the non-relaxing days ... but I'm glad today was ....
This is the day that the Lord has made ... I will rejoice and be glad in it!
I spent most of my morning at Wal-mart with Lauren, Justin, Kadi and Koel. We stayed in the book/musical toy isle for quite a long time. The kids played and Lauren and I read books. It is like being at the library/toybrary. Wonderful! Then, we strolled over to the Clearance isles. We stayed quite a bit of a long time there too!
I found ..... two gorgeous table cloths .... 100" x 60". The colors are Navy, Purple, and Sage on a white background. Flowers, Leaves, Music, and sweet garden sayings. ... Lovely! They are now the drapes in my bedroom!!! I paid $4.25 per table cloth!!!! Fabulous! AND there were matching cloth napkins ... now I have two big throw pillows on my bed. And I brought in a smaller navy one from the living room! My bedroom looks amazing! The napkins were 2 for $1 ... so for $10.50 ... I have a lovely 'new' room. I plan on now painting my bedroom sage ... with my white wood trim, big white bookcase ... and these new pillows and drapes ... Oooo-wee .... I SO EXCITED!!!
I also made an Italian Meatloaf for dinner ... AMAZING! It was like eating a giant meatball! MMMMMM....
AND here's another fun thing .... I now own "The Thrill of It All" starring James Garner and Doris Day! I love that movie!!! It is so funny ... one of those you can watch over and over! Now I 'need' "Move Over Darling" also starring James Garner and Doris Day. It is sooo funny too!
I found a new foundation makeup today! It really evens out my skin tone! Exciting stuff!
Keenan ... he's so cute ... every morning now he runs into the school building and up the stairs to the middle landing which has windows that look over the parking lot. He wants me to wave and blow him a kiss ... so I do. Sweet Boy.
He has also informed me that the Tyler in his class at school does not like him. Actually 'hates' him. That is hard to hear as a mom! I wanted to scratch the kids eyes. But I realize also, they are 7 and 8 years old. Emotions are rampant. Still a hard mommy moment for me. I asked Keenan why ... he says he doesn't know ... maybe because he sits too close to him ...
AND Kennedy told me that Jarrod in her class 'hates' her. I was shocked. I know for a fact that Jarrod likes her. But she says that she got in his way [unintentionally] in PE while playing Hockey. Apparently he is competitive.
Hard stuff for a mommy's heart. My babies are awesome! How dare anyone not think sooooo!!!!!
Kennedy dressed herself up in a black long sleeve top, black leggins and her long black boots this evening ... topping off the outfit with a black headband. My oh my ... didn't we look coffee-shoppee. She said she was a secret agent. He,he. She could wear a gunny sack and look pretty.
Kadi-here's my question .... why is it so hard for her to get along with people some days. I find myself being so embarrassed by the mean things she does and says ... yet I realize she isn't me. She may be a reflection of me to a degree ... but she is her own person. She must have some anger issues, or it is purely selfishness. Lord, I need wisdom to know how to parent this little girl!
By the way, Ike told her she was beautiful on Sunday ... so now she has decided she wants to marry Ike and not Justin. Fickle. he,he. Toddler romance. Funny stuff.
Koel ... at Wal-mart today ... he wanted Lauren and not me!!! I reached for him and he pulled away ... when he did come to me ... he wanted right back to her. My poor little heart. However, when he gets his little feelers hurt ... he comes running to me ... he knows who momma is!
It's funny. Every day, I just can't get over how cute he is. What a doll. Always smiling. And that dimple ... it goes on and on ..... AND speaking of his dimple ... which leads me to his cheeks .... his cheeks will do that flappy thing that Lauren's do! Hilarious!!!!!! For those of you who know what I'm talking about .... you know that is funny!
Kyle couldn't find a receipt tonight. I discovered quickly though that it wasn't that he couldn't find it ... he just really did not look for it first. Here's where I would place a smirking smiling face.
Thank you Lord for a relaxing day! And even for the non-relaxing days ... but I'm glad today was ....
This is the day that the Lord has made ... I will rejoice and be glad in it!
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
Colossians 3:23 Whatever you are doing, work at it with enthusiasm, as to the Lord and not for people, 3:24 because you know that you will receive your inheritance from the Lord as the reward. Serve the Lord Christ.
I've been very inward focused today.
Sitting here reading through Colossians and listening to music, I realize how I've been focusing on myself. It's been a hard afternoon. I still feel like sharing all my woes in here, but I realize ... I have not worked with enthusiasm today in anything. I have not pursued my day for the Lord ... I have pursued it for man ... for Kyle ... for me.
All things are to be for Christ ... FIRST.
"Who is He, whose the mightiest of all ...
Who is He, Creation trembles at his call ...
Who is He, the lowly sacrifice, who paid a victims' price ... His name is Jesus ...
Jesus ... from the Father's own right hand ...
Jesus ... Son of God and Son of man ...
Jesus ... who died and rose again ...
Jesus ... He's the Lion and the Lamb .....
Who is He, with a power none can tame ....
Who is He, that every foe will fear his name ....
Who is He, who was humbly led away to suffer that dark day ... His name is Jesus ....
Jesus ... from the Father's own right hand ...
Jesus ... Son of God and Son of man ...
Jesus ... who died and rose again ...
Jesus ... He's the Lion and the Lamb .....
He's the Lion and the Lamb .......
He's the lamb that was slain
He's the Lion that Reigns
My Savior and King ... both the same ...
Who is He, with the eyes that burn like fire ...
Who is He, oh the wonder He inspires ...
Who is He, who bore the guilt and shame for those who've gone astray ... His name is Jesus ...
Jesus ... from the Father's own right hand ...
Jesus ... Son of God and Son of man ...
Jesus ... who died and rose again ...
Jesus ... He's the Lion and the Lamb ....."
Jesus. I forget on a daily basis that it's not about me ... it's all about Him!
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord and not for Man! Why is it I go through day after day not living with Christ's power. He stands ready to give it.
Kris Bishop issued a challenge a couple of Sunday's ago .. I may have already mentioned it. But I think it is good. To not feed oneself physically, until it has been done Spiritually.
I don't want to walk around defeated. And I don't have to. That's the cool part. It is a choice. To live with enthusiasm for Christ ... it's a choice.
"Just as I am, without one plea.
But that thy blood was shed for me.
And that thou bidst me come to Thee ...
Oh Lamb of God, I come ... I come ...
Just as I am and waiting not,
To rid my soul of one dark blot.
To Thee whose blood can cleanse each spot ....
Oh Lamb of God, I come ... I come ...
All to Jesus, I surrender .... All to Him I freely give.
I will ever love and trust Him ... in His presence daily live.
I surrender all. I surrender all.
All to Thee my blessed Savior, I surrender all."
This is the day the Lord has made ... I will rejoice and be glad in it!
Enthusiasm! Joy! It's a choice! It's all about Jesus! Thank goodness, it's not about me!
I've been very inward focused today.
Sitting here reading through Colossians and listening to music, I realize how I've been focusing on myself. It's been a hard afternoon. I still feel like sharing all my woes in here, but I realize ... I have not worked with enthusiasm today in anything. I have not pursued my day for the Lord ... I have pursued it for man ... for Kyle ... for me.
All things are to be for Christ ... FIRST.
"Who is He, whose the mightiest of all ...
Who is He, Creation trembles at his call ...
Who is He, the lowly sacrifice, who paid a victims' price ... His name is Jesus ...
Jesus ... from the Father's own right hand ...
Jesus ... Son of God and Son of man ...
Jesus ... who died and rose again ...
Jesus ... He's the Lion and the Lamb .....
Who is He, with a power none can tame ....
Who is He, that every foe will fear his name ....
Who is He, who was humbly led away to suffer that dark day ... His name is Jesus ....
Jesus ... from the Father's own right hand ...
Jesus ... Son of God and Son of man ...
Jesus ... who died and rose again ...
Jesus ... He's the Lion and the Lamb .....
He's the Lion and the Lamb .......
He's the lamb that was slain
He's the Lion that Reigns
My Savior and King ... both the same ...
Who is He, with the eyes that burn like fire ...
Who is He, oh the wonder He inspires ...
Who is He, who bore the guilt and shame for those who've gone astray ... His name is Jesus ...
Jesus ... from the Father's own right hand ...
Jesus ... Son of God and Son of man ...
Jesus ... who died and rose again ...
Jesus ... He's the Lion and the Lamb ....."
Jesus. I forget on a daily basis that it's not about me ... it's all about Him!
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord and not for Man! Why is it I go through day after day not living with Christ's power. He stands ready to give it.
Kris Bishop issued a challenge a couple of Sunday's ago .. I may have already mentioned it. But I think it is good. To not feed oneself physically, until it has been done Spiritually.
I don't want to walk around defeated. And I don't have to. That's the cool part. It is a choice. To live with enthusiasm for Christ ... it's a choice.
"Just as I am, without one plea.
But that thy blood was shed for me.
And that thou bidst me come to Thee ...
Oh Lamb of God, I come ... I come ...
Just as I am and waiting not,
To rid my soul of one dark blot.
To Thee whose blood can cleanse each spot ....
Oh Lamb of God, I come ... I come ...
All to Jesus, I surrender .... All to Him I freely give.
I will ever love and trust Him ... in His presence daily live.
I surrender all. I surrender all.
All to Thee my blessed Savior, I surrender all."
This is the day the Lord has made ... I will rejoice and be glad in it!
Enthusiasm! Joy! It's a choice! It's all about Jesus! Thank goodness, it's not about me!
Monday, March 08, 2004
I had quite a near-fright this evening while on the phone ....
Pete came quickly to where I was outside and said these words ... "Your children have blown something up in the microwave!"
Oh my goodness!! thought I ... and I ran to see what the matter was ... in my mind thinking it must be a fork or a spoon .....
Did you know you shouldn't microwave a pop-tart longer than 4 seconds? It's true. That's what my children learned this evening. There sat Kadi's pop-tart billowing smoke in my kitchen after being 'nuked' literally. Poor pop-tart all tattered and blown up.
It really was quite funny. Not at first, but now it is.
Binkies are funny things. First of all how gross is it really to suck on a bulb of rubber day after day ... yuck. Then, they have this funny was of disappearing .... like today ... Koel has been through 4 of them. I don't know where they go. Somehow they always surface ... except for a yellow/red one ... it is just gone. Just one of those little things I think about.
Everyone but Koel is asleep right now. He's in his bed though. So, I'm off to slumber myself. It has been a long day ... good but long.
Here's a funny about today .... Each month I make a food menu and then plan my grocery list accordingly. Because I do this, I pay attention to grocery store ads and I remember prices. I can tell you whether something is cheaper at Shop N Save or at Aldi. I added it all up yesterday and told Kyle I was going to spend $243. That is 5 weeks of food for our family ... planned meals. Milk and etc., will continually have to be purchased. So, keeping in mind the $243 amount ... I went a little over that ... I actually spent $244! Oh my! He,he ... I love it when it is that close!!!!! What fun!!! Should I get out more?
To bed I go .......
Pete came quickly to where I was outside and said these words ... "Your children have blown something up in the microwave!"
Oh my goodness!! thought I ... and I ran to see what the matter was ... in my mind thinking it must be a fork or a spoon .....
Did you know you shouldn't microwave a pop-tart longer than 4 seconds? It's true. That's what my children learned this evening. There sat Kadi's pop-tart billowing smoke in my kitchen after being 'nuked' literally. Poor pop-tart all tattered and blown up.
It really was quite funny. Not at first, but now it is.
Binkies are funny things. First of all how gross is it really to suck on a bulb of rubber day after day ... yuck. Then, they have this funny was of disappearing .... like today ... Koel has been through 4 of them. I don't know where they go. Somehow they always surface ... except for a yellow/red one ... it is just gone. Just one of those little things I think about.
Everyone but Koel is asleep right now. He's in his bed though. So, I'm off to slumber myself. It has been a long day ... good but long.
Here's a funny about today .... Each month I make a food menu and then plan my grocery list accordingly. Because I do this, I pay attention to grocery store ads and I remember prices. I can tell you whether something is cheaper at Shop N Save or at Aldi. I added it all up yesterday and told Kyle I was going to spend $243. That is 5 weeks of food for our family ... planned meals. Milk and etc., will continually have to be purchased. So, keeping in mind the $243 amount ... I went a little over that ... I actually spent $244! Oh my! He,he ... I love it when it is that close!!!!! What fun!!! Should I get out more?
To bed I go .......
Sunday, March 07, 2004
I love Kyle. He's a good man. He's a hard-working man. He truly is my friend.
He performs this disappearing act sometimes. Last night he walked out the front door and didn't come back for like 3 hours. He does this every now and then. He just doesn't think. And then he doesn't answer his cell phone. If I only had the luxuries that he does!
He came back around 11:00 and changed what I was listening to on the computer without asking, then went out to the kitchen for a bite to eat and to watch TV. He remembered after he walked out of the room to put my music back on.
I was hurt. He had disappeared for 3 hours without even telling me he was leaving. Then he comes home and does exactly what he wants to here. In my way of thinking he owed it to me to leave the TV off and spend a little time with me!
BUT No ... then he fell asleep on the couch watching TV and stayed there all night ... with the TV on. (Same man who complains about lights being left on ... says it's different because after he's asleep ... he's not aware ....) I just don't get it. Ah well......
AND on Sunday mornings, I don't like him. For 9 years I've been getting the children and myself ready for church by myself while he lays around in bed. Today he's on the couch...where he slept all ngiht.
I don't know ... I just would like for him to take an interest in being a part of the Sunday morning routine. Fix breakfast for his family, change a diaper or two, fend off fights and disagreements that don't need to happen before church. There are so many things to do on Sunday mornings. I have just gotten good at doing them all myself.
Last week he just slept and slept so we left without him.
I may do that today.
Rather than start a fight/argument myself. He has to make his own choices. So often his choices hurt my heart, but I'm gonna be a big girl and realize that ...
1) He is different than me ... he is truly from Mars.
2) He straight up is a more self-focused person than I am ... I am five person focused. (self-focused is a nice way of saying 'selfish')
3) I can't change him by arguing with him.
4) We are each responsible according to the Lord for our own actions!
Therefore ...
Choose you this day who you will serve ... but as for me and my [children] we will serve the Lord!
Again, not saying that he doesn't in his own way ... just not the way I see it should be done.
Kyle just poked his head in the door ... we'll see if he stays awake. Then the question will be ... will he get ready on time. Even on Sunday mornings when he gets up on time .... he doesn't get ready for church until 10:00. I like to leave at 10:00. I'm never late for church when he isn't home. Never.
Things are so backward here. In so many ways this macho man of mine is a girl!
I feel better now. I decided rather than feel frustrated all morning, I would voice it on my blog.
I know my relationship with my husband is different from so many other relationships. Just know that it does work for us. There are things about me that drive him batty too.
On .... to get my household ready for church ................
He performs this disappearing act sometimes. Last night he walked out the front door and didn't come back for like 3 hours. He does this every now and then. He just doesn't think. And then he doesn't answer his cell phone. If I only had the luxuries that he does!
He came back around 11:00 and changed what I was listening to on the computer without asking, then went out to the kitchen for a bite to eat and to watch TV. He remembered after he walked out of the room to put my music back on.
I was hurt. He had disappeared for 3 hours without even telling me he was leaving. Then he comes home and does exactly what he wants to here. In my way of thinking he owed it to me to leave the TV off and spend a little time with me!
BUT No ... then he fell asleep on the couch watching TV and stayed there all night ... with the TV on. (Same man who complains about lights being left on ... says it's different because after he's asleep ... he's not aware ....) I just don't get it. Ah well......
AND on Sunday mornings, I don't like him. For 9 years I've been getting the children and myself ready for church by myself while he lays around in bed. Today he's on the couch...where he slept all ngiht.
I don't know ... I just would like for him to take an interest in being a part of the Sunday morning routine. Fix breakfast for his family, change a diaper or two, fend off fights and disagreements that don't need to happen before church. There are so many things to do on Sunday mornings. I have just gotten good at doing them all myself.
Last week he just slept and slept so we left without him.
I may do that today.
Rather than start a fight/argument myself. He has to make his own choices. So often his choices hurt my heart, but I'm gonna be a big girl and realize that ...
1) He is different than me ... he is truly from Mars.
2) He straight up is a more self-focused person than I am ... I am five person focused. (self-focused is a nice way of saying 'selfish')
3) I can't change him by arguing with him.
4) We are each responsible according to the Lord for our own actions!
Therefore ...
Choose you this day who you will serve ... but as for me and my [children] we will serve the Lord!
Again, not saying that he doesn't in his own way ... just not the way I see it should be done.
Kyle just poked his head in the door ... we'll see if he stays awake. Then the question will be ... will he get ready on time. Even on Sunday mornings when he gets up on time .... he doesn't get ready for church until 10:00. I like to leave at 10:00. I'm never late for church when he isn't home. Never.
Things are so backward here. In so many ways this macho man of mine is a girl!
I feel better now. I decided rather than feel frustrated all morning, I would voice it on my blog.
I know my relationship with my husband is different from so many other relationships. Just know that it does work for us. There are things about me that drive him batty too.
On .... to get my household ready for church ................
Saturday, March 06, 2004
Jenny is in Puerto Rico and I am in St. Louis. Yet we have the same moon to see in the sky. Tonight we looked at the moon together via the distance over the phone wires. It was a beautiful moon tonight. Full. Bright. Had a Halo. Lovely. I miss her.
Why is it that so many people I love are so far away from me?
I truly look forward to Heaven ...
"Sing the wondrous love of Jesus, Sing His mercy and His grace; In the mansions bright and blessed, He'll prepare for us a place.
"While we walk the pilgrim pathway, Clouds will over-spread the sky; But when traveling days are over, Not a shadow, not a sigh.
"Let us then be true and faithful, Trusting, serving every day; Just one glimpse of Him in glory, Will the toils of life repay.
"Onward to the prize before us! Soon His beauty we'll behold; Soon the pearly gates will open, We shall tread the streets of gold.
"When we all get to Heaven ... What a day of rejoicing that will be ... When we all see Jesus ... We'll sing and shout the Victory!
"When we all get to Heaven ... What a day of rejoicing that will be ... When we all see Jesus ... We'll sing and SHOUT the VICTORY!"
Why is it that so many people I love are so far away from me?
I truly look forward to Heaven ...
"Sing the wondrous love of Jesus, Sing His mercy and His grace; In the mansions bright and blessed, He'll prepare for us a place.
"While we walk the pilgrim pathway, Clouds will over-spread the sky; But when traveling days are over, Not a shadow, not a sigh.
"Let us then be true and faithful, Trusting, serving every day; Just one glimpse of Him in glory, Will the toils of life repay.
"Onward to the prize before us! Soon His beauty we'll behold; Soon the pearly gates will open, We shall tread the streets of gold.
"When we all get to Heaven ... What a day of rejoicing that will be ... When we all see Jesus ... We'll sing and shout the Victory!
"When we all get to Heaven ... What a day of rejoicing that will be ... When we all see Jesus ... We'll sing and SHOUT the VICTORY!"
We took the kids to McDonalds for lunch today. That was nice. It sure is getting pricey for us though. Makes me think Taco Bell is a better option!
We all brought our sodas home ... that was nice. The kids set theirs on the kitchen table and I carried mine all around the house. I have no idea what became of Kyle's.
Koel got up from his nap about 30 minutes ago. Apparently he went straight to the kitchen ... where he immediately found a full McDonalds size Medium soda! Yep, he tried to reach for it and found that he could get it .... Next thing ... it's all over the floor. A FULL MEDIUM size regular Coke. Sticky mess.
This is what I walk into in the kitchen about 25 mintues ago.
Keenan is standing there right beside the mess playing with something else, oblivious to what has just occurred ... SO typical of male behavior!
So, I mopped it up ... bonus here is that my kitchen floor will be clean while I cook dinner. That's always nice.
You just never know what is going to happen in a split second. Around here it usually involves a spill or a stain of somekind.
It is a hustling, bustling, bursting, happy home of 6 ... 7 when you count Pete!
We all brought our sodas home ... that was nice. The kids set theirs on the kitchen table and I carried mine all around the house. I have no idea what became of Kyle's.
Koel got up from his nap about 30 minutes ago. Apparently he went straight to the kitchen ... where he immediately found a full McDonalds size Medium soda! Yep, he tried to reach for it and found that he could get it .... Next thing ... it's all over the floor. A FULL MEDIUM size regular Coke. Sticky mess.
This is what I walk into in the kitchen about 25 mintues ago.
Keenan is standing there right beside the mess playing with something else, oblivious to what has just occurred ... SO typical of male behavior!
So, I mopped it up ... bonus here is that my kitchen floor will be clean while I cook dinner. That's always nice.
You just never know what is going to happen in a split second. Around here it usually involves a spill or a stain of somekind.
It is a hustling, bustling, bursting, happy home of 6 ... 7 when you count Pete!
Good morning ... and I mean morning ... It's Saturday and I was up before 7:00 ... CLEANING!!! I just couldn't lay in bed thinking about the mess.
Here is something interesting. I papercut the tip of my left pinkie yesterday evening. Ouch. But right now while I'm typing ... my ring finer is making up the difference for my pinkie. Wow. Typing is an amazing feat of the brain and hand when you really know how to do it. I'm amazed at how my brain is compensating for the huge bandaids on the top of my pinkie! Cool.
Last night was girl's night. I felt it was a bit chaotic. But that's okay. My oven was at fault. It is not working at all now. Kyle tried to fix it, but no luck. So ... I'm gonna check Kenmore's website and just see if maybe there is a recall on it. It's only 4 years old! So, all our plans for cooking last night were pressed into becoming creative ... we used my neighbor Felicia's oven. That was fun though too. AND next time ... I"m turning the TV off. We watched TLC ... but it just wasn't conversational.
I've set up a calendar of events for the summer for my kids. I think that is a great idea ... it will get me out and them too! I'm so motivated early in the morning! I'm waiting now for the post office to open ... then off I go to mail some ebay items.
Kyle is already off today too.... had two job bids this morning! Fabulous!!!!!
He couldnt' find his jacket yeserday. It had gotten underneath another jacket somehow ... so of course he couldnt' find it ... Oh the hilarity of it all!!!
Here is something interesting. I papercut the tip of my left pinkie yesterday evening. Ouch. But right now while I'm typing ... my ring finer is making up the difference for my pinkie. Wow. Typing is an amazing feat of the brain and hand when you really know how to do it. I'm amazed at how my brain is compensating for the huge bandaids on the top of my pinkie! Cool.
Last night was girl's night. I felt it was a bit chaotic. But that's okay. My oven was at fault. It is not working at all now. Kyle tried to fix it, but no luck. So ... I'm gonna check Kenmore's website and just see if maybe there is a recall on it. It's only 4 years old! So, all our plans for cooking last night were pressed into becoming creative ... we used my neighbor Felicia's oven. That was fun though too. AND next time ... I"m turning the TV off. We watched TLC ... but it just wasn't conversational.
I've set up a calendar of events for the summer for my kids. I think that is a great idea ... it will get me out and them too! I'm so motivated early in the morning! I'm waiting now for the post office to open ... then off I go to mail some ebay items.
Kyle is already off today too.... had two job bids this morning! Fabulous!!!!!
He couldnt' find his jacket yeserday. It had gotten underneath another jacket somehow ... so of course he couldnt' find it ... Oh the hilarity of it all!!!
Thursday, March 04, 2004
Well I just don't think before I act ....
I just called Jenny in PORKA-RITO ... and well ... she's asleep ... it's 11:30 there!!!!!! p.m.!!!
It is so hard to remember that part of the year they're 2 hours ahead and part of the year they're only 1 hour ahead!!! It's 9:30 here!
Jenn Reedy, I am SOOOOO sorry!!!!
Thank you in advance for fixing my BLOG problemo!
NOW ...
I feel I accomplished just a heck of a lot today. I finished up two big landscaping/planting bids today. I really think both are quite lovely. We'll see if the clients like them in a few days. I'm plopping them in the mail tomorrow. I spent the WHOLE day on them today! What fun! It felt like I was doing homework or research ... well, I was researching! I felt ALIVE! Yes, I realize I am bizarre.
Kadi tied herself to the piano today. She had a dress on with ties at the waist. A beautiful yellow dress from 30 years gone by .... ahhh, what a picture she was. So, I walk in the living room and she's crying because she has tied herself to the piano and is stuck. He,he ... my first thought was to sit right down and just giggle. But I decided to be a good mom and untie her. It would have been funny to have left her there for a while longer. She should know better than to tie herself to large pieces of immovable furniture!
Koel can say "Okay", "This", "Daddy", and "Hewwo" ... we think. They are sort of clear, but maybe we're trying to hear more than is there ... I don't remember when the other kids started talking. Is that wierd? Shouldn't I remember those things? Good grief ... I've been through this 3 times before ... You would think I would know!!
An update on bathroom-locking Keenan ... I received his progress report in the mail this week ... GLOWING! Mrs. Burkhardt just loves him. Course that is probably why he got yelled at this week ... I'm sure she was shocked to say the least by his behavior! But his progress report was fabulous! Proud, Proud, Proud.
Ned has decided that she likes to be called Ned. Whew! I can't break myself of that habit! So that's good news for me! She told me today that she and I should exercise together so I could lose weight. Out of the mouths of babes .............
Kyle lost his hat again. I say again, but I've never mentioned it before. Just know that atleast 4 times a week, he misplaces his hat and we turn the house over looking for it. And if it isn't his hat ... it is something else ... now that can be 7 days a week. I think I'll start writing about what he loses each day .... it really is funny to people who know and love him! Right .. Jenn? Just a quick comment like ... "Kyle lost his hat again ... took us an hour to find it". That'd be good.
We talked today about what if we just stay in this house forever ... and then we planned how we would change it ... once we have some good equity established in a bout 5 years, we could add on ... go up. Make three bedrooms upstairs and a bathroom. That would be groovy. I really love our neighborhood. It is sooooooo homey!!!!
K' .... welll it is nigh upon 10:00 .... actually only 9:45 ... but saying Nigh Upon works doesn't it?
G'Night.
I just called Jenny in PORKA-RITO ... and well ... she's asleep ... it's 11:30 there!!!!!! p.m.!!!
It is so hard to remember that part of the year they're 2 hours ahead and part of the year they're only 1 hour ahead!!! It's 9:30 here!
Jenn Reedy, I am SOOOOO sorry!!!!
Thank you in advance for fixing my BLOG problemo!
NOW ...
I feel I accomplished just a heck of a lot today. I finished up two big landscaping/planting bids today. I really think both are quite lovely. We'll see if the clients like them in a few days. I'm plopping them in the mail tomorrow. I spent the WHOLE day on them today! What fun! It felt like I was doing homework or research ... well, I was researching! I felt ALIVE! Yes, I realize I am bizarre.
Kadi tied herself to the piano today. She had a dress on with ties at the waist. A beautiful yellow dress from 30 years gone by .... ahhh, what a picture she was. So, I walk in the living room and she's crying because she has tied herself to the piano and is stuck. He,he ... my first thought was to sit right down and just giggle. But I decided to be a good mom and untie her. It would have been funny to have left her there for a while longer. She should know better than to tie herself to large pieces of immovable furniture!
Koel can say "Okay", "This", "Daddy", and "Hewwo" ... we think. They are sort of clear, but maybe we're trying to hear more than is there ... I don't remember when the other kids started talking. Is that wierd? Shouldn't I remember those things? Good grief ... I've been through this 3 times before ... You would think I would know!!
An update on bathroom-locking Keenan ... I received his progress report in the mail this week ... GLOWING! Mrs. Burkhardt just loves him. Course that is probably why he got yelled at this week ... I'm sure she was shocked to say the least by his behavior! But his progress report was fabulous! Proud, Proud, Proud.
Ned has decided that she likes to be called Ned. Whew! I can't break myself of that habit! So that's good news for me! She told me today that she and I should exercise together so I could lose weight. Out of the mouths of babes .............
Kyle lost his hat again. I say again, but I've never mentioned it before. Just know that atleast 4 times a week, he misplaces his hat and we turn the house over looking for it. And if it isn't his hat ... it is something else ... now that can be 7 days a week. I think I'll start writing about what he loses each day .... it really is funny to people who know and love him! Right .. Jenn? Just a quick comment like ... "Kyle lost his hat again ... took us an hour to find it". That'd be good.
We talked today about what if we just stay in this house forever ... and then we planned how we would change it ... once we have some good equity established in a bout 5 years, we could add on ... go up. Make three bedrooms upstairs and a bathroom. That would be groovy. I really love our neighborhood. It is sooooooo homey!!!!
K' .... welll it is nigh upon 10:00 .... actually only 9:45 ... but saying Nigh Upon works doesn't it?
G'Night.
I'm poised and ready for a new day here at the computer and it is 9:15 a.m.
Kadi, Justin and Koel are busy watching BARNEY, so I must concentrate while they are glued to the big purple dinosaur.
On the agenda this morning ... finish two big job bids ... all planting !!! What fun! I spent so much time yesterday researching plants! I love it! Maybe I should take some horticulture classes. Might be a good idea.
After I finish up the bids ... write bills. Yeeha! Now, I'm okay with it though.
Then I NEED to clean my room. It looks like Mrs. Abominable Snowman must live in here. I'm embarrased ... it is hard to work in this pit ... but because I've been working is why it has gotten so bad. What a vicious circle.
Good Morning to this Day! I'm ready!
Kadi, Justin and Koel are busy watching BARNEY, so I must concentrate while they are glued to the big purple dinosaur.
On the agenda this morning ... finish two big job bids ... all planting !!! What fun! I spent so much time yesterday researching plants! I love it! Maybe I should take some horticulture classes. Might be a good idea.
After I finish up the bids ... write bills. Yeeha! Now, I'm okay with it though.
Then I NEED to clean my room. It looks like Mrs. Abominable Snowman must live in here. I'm embarrased ... it is hard to work in this pit ... but because I've been working is why it has gotten so bad. What a vicious circle.
Good Morning to this Day! I'm ready!
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
Let me just say ...
I saw the Passion of the Christ on Friday night.
Sunday a.m. we were singing God of Wonders. During the chorus where we sing "Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and Earth" repeatedly, I wept.
The scene where Jesus crawls to put himself on the cross was etched in my mind.
Hallelujah for the sacrifice he CHOSE to make for us!
He did NOT have to do it.
PRAISE GOD that HE did!
I saw the Passion of the Christ on Friday night.
Sunday a.m. we were singing God of Wonders. During the chorus where we sing "Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and Earth" repeatedly, I wept.
The scene where Jesus crawls to put himself on the cross was etched in my mind.
Hallelujah for the sacrifice he CHOSE to make for us!
He did NOT have to do it.
PRAISE GOD that HE did!
Wonders never cease.
I picked up Paige and Zaine from school today because they had a half-day. Very fun. They're very fun. We love them sooo much.
Paige told me that if she didn't come to our house she was going to spend the night with a friend. I said "What are we?" She said ... "You're family". Ahhh.... Isn't that awesome????? I was so touched!
Then, we walked to Buder to pick up Keenan and Kennedy with Felicia and Skyler .... all of us ... Kadi, Koel, Me, Paige, Zaine and Felicia and Skyler. What a group!
When the children were released, Tyler and Kennedy came out first. Tyler promptly informed me that Keenan must have been in trouble that day because he saw him crying in the hallway ......
When Keenan came out, Tristian was with him and Tristian immediately informed me ... "Keenan got in trouble today!" So I asked him how ...
Apparently my son decided to lock all the doors in the boys bathroom by crawling under the stalls.
He was yelled at by his teacher and lost his recess.
He can't tell us why he did it.
I'm baffled. Wonders never cease.
I've asked him repeatedly about it and he just doesn't know why ... he says.
When we talked to his father about it .... Kyle began by being serious, but was so tickled by it, that he ended up telling Keenan a story about something he did when he was in school ...
Apparently my dear husband switched the boy and girl signs on the bathroom once upon a time ... some poor little girl ended up crying in the boys bathroom.
He told Keenan never to do either of those things ... what he did or what Keenan did, but that it was funny.
Can you believe it? Wonders never cease!
So, Keenan has been sort of chastised here at home. If you can call it that.
I'm going in tomorrow to find out from Mrs. Burkhardt her side of the story.
My boys.
My, oh, my.
I picked up Paige and Zaine from school today because they had a half-day. Very fun. They're very fun. We love them sooo much.
Paige told me that if she didn't come to our house she was going to spend the night with a friend. I said "What are we?" She said ... "You're family". Ahhh.... Isn't that awesome????? I was so touched!
Then, we walked to Buder to pick up Keenan and Kennedy with Felicia and Skyler .... all of us ... Kadi, Koel, Me, Paige, Zaine and Felicia and Skyler. What a group!
When the children were released, Tyler and Kennedy came out first. Tyler promptly informed me that Keenan must have been in trouble that day because he saw him crying in the hallway ......
When Keenan came out, Tristian was with him and Tristian immediately informed me ... "Keenan got in trouble today!" So I asked him how ...
Apparently my son decided to lock all the doors in the boys bathroom by crawling under the stalls.
He was yelled at by his teacher and lost his recess.
He can't tell us why he did it.
I'm baffled. Wonders never cease.
I've asked him repeatedly about it and he just doesn't know why ... he says.
When we talked to his father about it .... Kyle began by being serious, but was so tickled by it, that he ended up telling Keenan a story about something he did when he was in school ...
Apparently my dear husband switched the boy and girl signs on the bathroom once upon a time ... some poor little girl ended up crying in the boys bathroom.
He told Keenan never to do either of those things ... what he did or what Keenan did, but that it was funny.
Can you believe it? Wonders never cease!
So, Keenan has been sort of chastised here at home. If you can call it that.
I'm going in tomorrow to find out from Mrs. Burkhardt her side of the story.
My boys.
My, oh, my.
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